心碎

近来都不知怎么搞的，脾气真的一天坏过一天，一点小事情就会撩起我的火来。可能工作压力吧，看着一堆好像永远都做不完的文件，然后老板又不停地催促快一点，再加上同事一个一个地辞职，昔日热闹的情景已不再出现了。我好像孤独地作战着，那种志气和精神就慢慢地被一种叫“孤单”的恐怖东西 给侵蚀了。

有很多东西真的不是随便可以说出口，不是因为事情的复杂性，而是不懂和哪个人去分享我心中的烦恼与不开心。对我而言，一个拥抱、一句安慰的话、一个小小的鼓励，已足我再提起精神继续努力奋斗,。我不相信“激将法”这东西，尖锐地话一次又一次狠狠地插入我的心里，我真的会很难受。我最终也是普通人一个，也是有脆弱的时候，可以不要把我比到一文不值，好吗?

究竟我在你心目中有着怎样的地位，我开始模糊了，你好像一次过推翻了我一直以为是对的答案...........

感动

时常都听人家说: "好又一餐，唔好又一餐"，感觉就好像只要有得吃，好与不好还不是这样。但到底如何去下定义说什么是好的一餐，和不好的一餐呢？对我这个容易满足的人来说，尽管是豆腐青菜、咸鱼豆干，只要吃得开心，我已认为那是好的一餐了。有些人尽管天天大鱼大肉，但如果孤伶伶或吃得不开心的话，我宁愿吃白粥算了，因为我明白"宁吃开眉粥，莫吃愁眉饭"这一句话。

无可否认，人是犯贱的，尤其是男人。怎么说呢? 当一样好好的东西摆在面前却不珍惜，到失去了才感觉可惜和后悔莫及。我承认我也是其中之一，因为以前晚餐总是在回家前，妈妈就已准备好，我只要洗洗手，就可以开始享受晚餐。自从上健身房后，晚餐已经被我列入"罪恶行为"一框，无论菜肴多吸引，都一一被我拒绝了。可能那时候的我极度渴望要瘦下来吧，所以浪费了妈妈的一番心意而完全没有一丁点的感觉内疚。因某些原因，妈妈已不像以前那样准备晚餐，刚开始我还洋洋得意，心想就算不煮我也没什么大损失。好了，当我渐渐对外面的食物感觉到腻，并且厌恶时，我开始想念"住家菜"，但现在只能在记忆中回味了。

可能对一些人来说，朋友在家煮饭，然后叫你来吃饭，显然有点怪。但我对这个东西已经不是陌生，因为我时常都会去朋友家黐饭吃，只是看在谁的家而已。现在每当有朋友说要煮饭，问我要不要来吃，我肯定猛点头立刻答应，尤其是他们说："我煲了汤"。我很喜欢喝汤，可能我是半个广东人吧，我真的很希望我每一个晚餐都有汤。*罐头的，你自己喝完它吧* 对我这个渴望喝汤的汤痴来说，汤可能比菜来得更重要。其实我对那天的晚餐有种莫名的感动，原因是我知道我朋友是很少下厨，但还是提出邀请煮个晚饭给我，并且煲汤。Ermm….我要送上一个吻以作答谢吗?

老黄瓜汤

炒豆角

荷包蛋

虽然不是什么三珍海味，也不是大厨师级的烹饪，没有柔和的音乐和浪漫的环境，但就像我说的，只要吃得开心，其他的事情都不重要了，不是吗?

宽恕

有一天同事突然问起一个值得令人费神去思考的问题，她说：你会选择你爱他比较多的人，还是爱你比较多的人，作为你一生的伴侣。顿时我心想，谁不想另一半爱自己多一点? 同事们的回答，都是选择一个爱她们的人比较多的人。虽然无可否定到底这段路的成功与否，都不是只凭这一点来判断，但起码和自己爱的人在一起，谁爱谁多一点，难道还重要吗？当然不是每个人的爱情路都平坦无阻，可能有些人认为要经过崎岖的道路才可令他们领略到人生意义。但我可以大胆地拍着我的胸口，大声说：我宁愿不要领略什么人生意义。

那天看了一个朋友特地为我而写的一篇部落格，还没看完，我的泪很自然地就流了出来，心里就有种难以形容的悲哀。这一个朋友，就算以 "很特别" 来形容，我都觉得不能够完全表达到我心里想要说的那种关系。可能曾经一起经历过的事情，令我就算到睡进棺材的那天都不能忘记，但这就只能永远在记忆中徘徊。虽然全都是很短暂的，但已足以令我觉得刻苦铭心，但始终无论多依依不舍都挽留不到什么，可能放开了手，对大家来说是更好的选择吧，还是那句：你开心，就是我的安慰。可能我没勇气再说出那句话，但我的心思，我觉得有一天还是会被感觉得到的。我不敢去遐想任何东西，但我仍然期待那一天的到来。

对那位朋友说的话：
我需要的不是那句一直重复的 "对不起"，相比而言，你的关心来得更重要。我没期望你能为我做些什么，我希望的，只是想看见你昔日那灿烂的笑容，那种真正发出内心的快乐。 可能我一直认为我不是你任何人，所以很多东西我都尽量保留、不越界，但不代表我忽略你，而是我不想令你觉得厌恶。我只想和你说：我没有责怪过你。未来的路是怎样，由上天去安排吧，有缘的，一定会再续。

新的开始

交了辞职信一个月后的今天，我总算是逃离了老狐狸的魔掌。虽然对同事们依依不舍，但天下无不散之筵席，以后还是会有见面的机会，毕竟我新公司也不是离他们很远。同事们说在我临走前想唱首张学友的"祝福"给我听，我真的害怕我会流眼泪。Eh， 我不是那种铁石心肠的人啦，别以为男人不会流泪........... 虽然我切洋葱时流不少。> <'' 同事们星期四为我办了个小小的farewell午餐，虽然不是山珍海味，但起码我觉得很温馨。有时我会觉得有点内疚，我好像在很忙的时期丢下了他们，尤其是我的一个senior。他与别人不同的地方，就是那永远都不会发脾气的性格。无论我做的东西如何出错，错得如何离谱都好，他都会很耐心地帮我修改。我曾经问了同一个问题超过三次，他都会不厌其烦地回答，而且还是清楚地交待每个细节。他每次都大方地请我吃东西，譬如我们在Miri公干时，还有那个farewell午餐，都是他付钱的。Secret Recipe 呐，别开玩笑呐。

刚开始到新公司上班，很多东西理所当然都很不习惯，没了19寸LCD Monitor ，没了internet， 没了大桌子，没了可以大摇大摆迟到、不上班都不必给MC的公司。可能以前过于依赖我的senior，突然间什么难题都要靠自己去解决，以前那种一转头就有答案的情景不再会有，真的会有一个冲动想回到旧公司。所谓好马不吃回头草，更何况学会独立是一件好事，向好的方向去看，那种幼稚的念头就会慢慢消失了。接近两个星期的时间，我还是不能完全习惯新公司的工作方式，但起码好的是，我还没进去工作时，我已经和同事们打好基础了，相处方面完全没问题，算是个好的开始吧。

最近老毛病又来了，那种胡思乱想的性格总是改不了，然后朋友就会学Sat In The City里面的一个经典名句:"你唸多咗啦"。有时还觉得自己还挺白痴的，没事找事来烦。可能，真的是我想太多了吧.....................

新年快乐

快乐的日子过得特别快，更何况是超级+十分+非常快乐的呐。转眼间新年已经过了差不多一星期，新年期间真的令我发福不少。别说没去健身，连仰卧起坐和掌上压都懒得在家做，加上令人垂咽三尺的新年食物，对一个馋嘴的家伙来说，想要不胖，真的比忍住不吃还要难。>.< 今年的新年可说是蛮特别的，第一，因为大年初一也是情人节。虽说两个日子毫无相干，但我始终还是个别地庆祝一番了。除此之外，我觉得很特别的第二个原因是，我和一班刚认识不久的朋友共度了超过一星期的新年。"ceh…………………." 我都知道你们是这个反应了。但对我而言，这是一个很特别的经历。以前的我根本不会和一班不熟悉的人说那么多话，互动那么多。 这渐渐的改变 令我不再封闭在自己的世界里，认识多一点人后，看东西的角度，思想的方向都不再和以前一样单纯了。当然，我不是那种有了新朋友就把现在的朋友都抛弃，然后有事才会出现的烂家伙。

..新年宴会

。堆在我房间的新年饼

.

说真的，我很害怕半夜三更电话响，简讯还好。那天朋友两点早上打来我的手机，我感觉有点儿心寒，因为害怕有什么事情发生了。果然不是好消息，因为她遭一班"缩春"的马来仔抢劫。谢天谢地那是一班"缩春"的，不然我朋友就遭遇不测了。当时她，她男友和她妈为了帮一个车子燃油用光的陌生人，就到附近的添油站，打算添一桶油，然后倒入陌生人的车子。新年嘛，况且大家都是华人，当然不想看到别人有难，但自己却袖手旁观咯。当他们添油到一半时，我朋友就听到一堆摩多声，抬头看一看周围，发现来了一班马来仔。当时心想可能别人也来添油，就别多理会。我朋友突然感觉不妥，因为她听见 后面好像有人向着他们跑过来。她立刻叫她妈妈别下车，正当她想跑上车时，一个马来仔就已抓住她的手了，想要抢她的手机。她男友赶紧一手抓住她另一只手，另一只手抱着她的腰。一不小心，她整个人就跌到在地上。但她从没想过和那马来仔妥协，瞄准了他重要部位后，就狠狠地踢了几次。幸好这时有一辆大货车经过，司机按了喇叭后，马来仔见气势不对，立刻落跑了。

虽然我朋友没什么大碍，只是脚在跌倒时擦伤了，手臂则瘀黑了一点。我听了她的电话后，心里都毛了。总以为这些只会在电视出现的情节，竟然发生在他们身上。虽然事后发现颈上的金链不见了，就当作破财挡灾吧，人没事就好。Aikz….. 忘了说，事发地点就在我家附近的ESSO油站。对，就是SMK Sri Sentosa 对面那个!

有班朋友在泰国旅游回来，当他们向我展示他们的纹身时，弄得我心痒痒的。其实我也想要一个，但是有点害怕爸妈会骂。可能..................会来一个先斩后奏gg

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我在想什么时候才适合穿这件衣服>.<

哥哥和弟弟^^

Non Halal~~

累，很累很累

挨过了接近三个星期的公干，终于在星期四晚上回到了吉隆坡。原本计划星期三晚启程 回到吉隆坡，怎么知道老板email了一堆queries给我同事，搞得原本的计划都为了这个而更改了一点。虽然看来只是逗留多一天，但是对一个呆在Miri将近三个星期的我来说，简直是比毒品上瘾但毒品没了般痛苦，就连逗留多一秒钟都不想。当到达LCCT机场的那一刻，我有冲动大喊: "我回来了!!" 为了不要破坏Ng&Co. 的名誉，我看低调一点，改为心里喊就算了。~对，我是胆小鬼，我承认

到家门口的那一刻，我放下行李就和朋友到外吃夜宵。目的当然是医肚子啦，其次是要跟朋友聚聚咯，再来就是吃些我想念了三星期的食物。在Miri真的無啖好食，所谓的"国际性早餐" (International breakfast)，来来去去都是炒饭，炒面，马铃薯，baked bean, 杂菜，咖喱鸡，午餐基本上都是马来餐。你说啦，堂堂华人一名，你可以忍受多少餐? 我一天比一天拿更少饭，再下去可能就患厌食症了。~我知道那是不可能发生的事，让我发泄一下可以吗?

下班时看见的彩虹

Lalapan

没看过的浓缩果汁

昨天刚庆祝了Da Da 的生日，去了一间不懂什么烂臭café，看了它们的餐牌反而饱了。喝了点饮料然后就下半场 --------- mamak档。不懂为什么会为了小事一件而败坏了心情，可能生气他们没听我解释就你一句我一句地批评个不停。其实我也想改变发型，只不过是无能为力而已。我头发的长度，说短不短，但也不长。如果现在不剪，到新年肯定是杂草横生了，但以这种长度，你要我怎么去改变啊？为何要为难理发师呢，既然专业的说把它剪短时最好的选择，我又何必学某些人一样假厉害呢？只怕到最后弄巧反础，到时牺牲的只有我的头发啊。说真的，这次不是普通的短，我好像将近变平头小子了。

生日快乐，Mr. Da Da

三个星期没去健身房，回来后第一次去就好像over 了一点。上完Body pump后，我的手好像举不起来了。 没办法啊，要身材漂亮就要付出啊。有些人时常说: "要靓唔要命"，我可以大声地对他们说: "我要靓，我都要命"。我又不是为了要把身材搞好而不顾自己的生命安全啊，到目前为止我只尽力而为，我才不会把身体搞砸了。向32寸腰，70公斤进发吧!

Miri, Again

以前小时候，总有个念头想要快快变成大人，还在念中学时，想要快点投入社会工作，现在工作了，就很羡慕人家可以出国公干。好了，现在全都实现了，反而觉得后悔了。看着镜子中的我，天啊，一天比一天老>.<，到底石修和刘德华吃了什么屎啊?

很多人都以为公干很爽，认为可以工作同时旅游。那我可以跟你们说: “爽个屁啊??!”从早做到晚，别说玩了，就快连屙屎都没时间。每晚都带一大堆文件回旅店做，想做死人咩？ 你说啦，有什么好？牺牲了去健身，牺牲了睡眠，牺牲了跟朋友相聚，还好，色相还保留着。本来还以为可以在旅馆上网，起码可以解解闷嘛，但这该死的wireless，在我的房间竟然detect不到。然后我从柜台得到的答案是: “there is no problem with our wireless coverage, if you can’t connect to internet even by using LAN cable, I also annot do anything, sorry sir……” 好一个不负责任的答案啊。!@#$%^&* 幸好今天晚上又可以上网，不然真的会发霉生蘑菇了，但明天能不能还是未知之数。不知不觉已在这里四天了，可能很多东西做的关系吧，所以时间才过得那么快。我看我同事的时间过得更快，今天我总算休息一个晚上，但他还是很努力地边看着文件，边听着我不懂欣赏的福建歌。

上个星期朋友send了一首泰国歌给我，起初还不觉得怎样，但听了几次后，发觉我已中毒了。今天我的耳朵整天都是听着这首歌，除了午餐时间外，我连上厕所都听着，看来像是中毒太深了。正所谓"山高皇帝远"，那个吝啬老板不在，我们爱听歌就听歌，爱大声说他坏话就毫不保留地来个坏话大比拼，吹咩?

我回来了

"哈湫......... 灰尘还真多吔。咦，还有冬菇，青苔，杂草...................................." 朋友不说，我还真的没发觉我的部落格已荒废多时了，要登入时还差点忘了密码。>.<”

开始发觉到上健身房的好处了，一来可以运动减肥，二来可以消磨时间，三来可以认识新朋友，但只有第二项才是我唯一感受的到的好处。不知不觉已上健身房五个多月了，但身体明显的变化显然是...................... 没有。说完全没有是没可能的啦，除非去那里只是调戏良家妇女，撩事斗绯，有破坏没建设咯，否则多多少少都会获益的，不然给了的费用真的就像丢进咸水海了。虽然朋友们都看不到效果，本人也差点同意他们的讲法了，但当我从新穿回一些旧的衣裤时，他们都会异口同声地说: "咦，好久没看见你穿这件衣服/裤子了" ，又或者是 "eh, 新买的啊? 没见过的?" 其实是穿不下了，然后搁在衣橱一段时间，所以当我穿回出来时，他们才会以为是新买的，严重炸到咯。

圣诞节当天，在我家搞了个小派对。说明是小的，所以也没叫很多人。当天老爸回到家时，派对才刚要开始，但他看来有点醉意了。我个人认为喝了点酒的老爸比较可爱，起码不会那么严肃和专制，说起话来还很搞笑，但坏处就是他会喋喋不休，说有的没的，就像死不放弃的苍蝇一般，缠绕着我(们)的耳朵。看到我一班朋友到了，惯性好客的老爸当然会热情地招待咯，连我虎视眈眈但最后也不敢打主意的两支酒都变成了祭品，看来我在家的地位都不比这班和我老爸不怎么熟悉的朋友们高 T^T 老爸在预料中的一样，拼命叫我的朋友们一起喝，听好噢，是"我的朋友们"，没包括我，哈哈，因为他知道我会毫不客气地帮忙“享受”那两支酒。但真的没想到我喝醉的样子是多么的丑，简直是糗大了。尽管我很努力地回想当天我说了和做了些什么，但还是徒劳无功。我对朋友告诉我的事情简直是没有印象，心想那天我真的有那么糟糕吗? 但幸运的是，没有一个人拍下当天的事，不然，这个笑话就不止笑一个星期了。

新的一年，过去的就让它过去吧，一切从新开始，别对无谓的过去耿耿于怀了，人始终都要向前望的，贪恋过去是不会进步的。大家都努力吧!!

重逢

今天总算安安分分地呆在家里，整理房间﹑洗洗衣服，做做家务。回想起来真的很久没在周末呆在家里了，可能渐渐地习惯以前一个人的日子了。几个月前的我就是一个坐不定的人，就像屁股有刺似的，无论如何都会找朋友去逛街喝茶来消磨时间。看来有些事情的改变，人都会跟着改变。究竟是好是坏，还是需要一些时间才能定断。但对本人来说，是一件好得不得了的改变。

最近觉得自己怪怪的，无端端会回想一些根本不值得一提的小事情，然后人就变得心情低落。虽然最后全发泄在健身房的脚踏车上，但第二天同样的事情再次发生。没办法，谁叫我有一个喜欢有事没事就喜欢回忆的脑袋? 口味可换，衣服可换，性格可换，脑袋总不能了吧? 但不令我不觉得佩服的是，我不开心的心情，身边的朋友没有几个发觉到，反而不常见面的朋友突然在Facebook 里问起我什么事情令我心情低落。我好奇地问回他什么使他那样问我，他的回答才让我吓一跳。他说只看我的Facebook就知道了，我顿时心想他有那么神吗，因为我的Facebook 也没写过什么，用猜的哪有那么准？David，你领我佩服得五体投地。

星期一参加了一个饭局，一个朋友的生日饭局。也可说成是"化妆舞会"吧，因为开心的面具无论喜欢或讨厌，还是要把它给戴上，因为我才不要把主人家的兴致给破坏掉呐，说到底还是人家生日的正日嘛。不懂有多少人可以感觉到我在那个饭局里吃得有多么的不自然，但可以肯定的是，那餐是绝对值得的。看着寿星女开心的模样，付出那一点点真的不算什么。但有点遗憾的，就是精心安排的惊喜全被破坏掉了。失眠了几天想出来的惊喜，就这样被白费掉了。我真的气得一句话都说不出，因为我最讨厌当我放了很多心机下去的东西，到头来我得到的却是"零"。好了，从今以后这些东西我会可免则免，因为我真的不喜欢那种失望的感觉。

大合照

我和寿星女

今天早上毫无准备之下被朋友叫去interview，感觉真的怪怪的。Interview从来没有那么的轻松过，这反而令我觉得担心。那个老板一句都没问到关于我要求的薪水，只是问一些例常的问题，例如住哪里，有什么工作经验，为什么要辞职bla bla bla….　从朋友口中知道这个老板没什么脾气，在那里的老员工工作了八年都没看过他发脾气，看来去那里工作是件好事，但是否雇用我还是不能肯定咯。离开前也是平常那句:" I'll give you a call then, thanks for coming…." 其实我去interview的公司就在我现在公司的斜对面，不懂改天碰到“旧”老板会不会尴尬。嘻嘻。神经病，人家还在考虑当中啦，说请我才算啦。

前几天在facebook找回很旧没联络的朋友，这种重逢的感觉真好，希望别再失去联络了，不懂人家想念你的吗？哈哈...

学习

有朋友告诉我，治疗分手后的伤，最好的方法就是再次谈恋爱，让自己投向另一段新感情，渐渐地就会把以前的事情忘记。虽然我赞成这个是个好方法，但绝对不认同。如果两个人是相爱的那还可以接受，但如果只是把别人当成浮生圈，或代替品，那和一般无良心的人有什么分别呢? 就因为要治疗自己而要别人付出没有结果的爱情，我宁愿不要。上天是很公平的，做的坏事多，总有一天会接受惩罚，只是时间上的问题而已。

前天早上睡迟了，张开眼睛已经是八点早上。我连忙跳起床，冲进冲凉房梳洗。我的牙刷可说是“挂”在墙上的。当我心急，一手用力把牙刷一扯，挂着我牙刷的塑胶盒子掉了。我的冲凉房也不是很大，但是无论如何我都找不回塑胶盒子的另一半。只剩下..........

时间不多的我，没再理会那么琐碎的事了，上班不迟到才是最重要。我尝试回到家再去冲凉房再找一次，匪夷所思的是，那另一块就是怎么也找不回来，最后我还是放弃了。当我坐下来无聊时，我突然回想，难道这是上天给我的一些指示？暗示我失去了的就算了吧，无论我如何努力都没有可能再找回我要那另一半。我可以做的，只有去找一个新的。如何伤心都是没用的，因为没有人会同情你，反而会说你是窝囊废。

看了“仁心解码”的第13集，方中信在其中一幕里说了一句很对的话。他说：“感情总会有离离合合，如果挽回不到，就要学习接受。”学习，就代表了有失败的可能，但能从失败中学习到，才是最重要。我承认我还是不能完全放下，但最起码我认真地在学习着，跌倒了，就要重新站起来，坐在地上大哭，只会令自己变得更无能，同时被人看不起。我总不相信失去你就没办法生活，我就是要告诉你，我会比以前更开心。

无奈

虽然已经过了一个星期，但是我对那件事的记忆依旧那么的清晰。她的每一句话，眼神，神情，反应，都一一在我脑海中挥之不去。我以为全情投入于工作就会渐渐地把它忘记，但实在是很难很难。无论我怎么去逃避，尽量不去想，到最后还是徒劳无功。真的掩饰得很辛苦，但为了不添朋友们的麻烦，只好继续带着开心的面具示人。明明自己知道无论怎么做都不会将结局改变，但最后还是忍不住悲伤。 我真的不想再为了一个不值得的人而伤心，但我实在是控制不到。上天给我的这个考验实在是太难了，就像让一个初学者做着上级任务一样。我试着告诉自己不要对不值得的东西再付出任何时间，在以为成功之际，到最后还是失败了。我尝试很多方法去忘记，却没有一个有效。难道这个伤口就是那么难痊愈吗？我的心总是把我的脑打败了，彻彻底底地打败了。我真的很想把头撞向墙壁，让我丧失记忆了不就好了吗?

KNNCCB

SEI SOH HAI!! U GO DIE LA!!

IF UR HOUSE DUN HAVE MIRROR,

PLEASE USE UR URINE TO SEE HOW U LOOK LIKE SIN

DUN EVERYDAY FAT HOU IN FRONT OF THE MALE STAFFS

TAI SEI U SURELY BECOME LOU GU POH

JUST WAIT BA LA

Sounds Stupid

I have a feeling want to take sleeping pil and sleep till I die. So many thing I need to fan recently. I feel tired of that already. I know that I cannot try to avoid those fan stuffs. But sometimes I really dunno what I can do to make the things better. I tried, tried and tired... But what I can get? Is "nothing".... Can anyone please tell me what step I should take next? I just feel that I have zero benefit. What I want to do also cannot be completed. I begin to rub my eyes, coz what I saw all become grey colour. I feel that is no more colourful thing in my life.

I feel nervous... I feel lonely.. I afraid the dream I had last night will come true.. I can't sleep back after I woke up from tat bad dream. I see the time with my handphone. It showed 5.16am. It just a normal screen that without any miss call or sms. I was stairing the ceiling for almost an hour before I get up to bath and get ready to work. Without my glasses and the light on, I took my mp3 player and play it loud in my ears. I begin feel down when I heard the song named "Touch My Hand" from David Archuleta. I feel helpless.

Today was another boring day for me in office. I thought I can concentrate my work so that I have no time wasted on simply think on something useless. I quite busy for whole morning and afternoon. But at the time I almost get rid of those fan stuffs in my mind, my colleague asked me to stop accessing the file I was doing as he need to make some amendment in the file which cannot be amended in other pc if I open it in my pc. He said he will take long time on doing the amendment. Which mean, I have nothing to do before he finish his work. I thought I can call my friend for a short talk, it ended up with my phone out of credit and I dun even have chance to listen the "hello" from her. WTF... The colleague who fetch me back told me that she will go back on 10pm, PROVIDED she able to finish her work in time. I almost scold all her zou zong 18 doi in my heart. No choice, who ask me need to tumpang ppl's car? I forced to show a "nothing happen before" face. Other than that, I dunno what reaction I can give to her already.

I no need to work on tomorrow but I still have a lot of thing waiting for me to do. I wondering I can gao dim all those things in one day. Just cross my fingers that things will go smoothly tomorrow. Hopefully got someone can accompany me to go as well.

Kuantan Trip

Finally result was out this monday. I feel happy that I passed 1 out of the 3 papers. My colleague was looking at me with a strange face when I told her I failed another 2 papers and yet I still can't hide my happiness. Probably she dunno how hard ACCA paper is. Sometimes really need some luck when doing exam, just like Adelyn who get 50marks for her P1 paper. But then she deserved to pass the paper as she really put effort when she was doing her revision. I can't blame anyone but my own self as I not really that concentrate on study before exam. Funny thing was, I passed the paper which I have the least confidence. The one I have most confidence not even close to passing mark..

~8 marks to pass... pui hao sui..

Having a trip in Kuantan last week. Although no hand for me to hold when walking on street, I still enjoy the trip. Valentine's day fell on Saturday this year. Dunno I can't feel it or Kuantan ppl not popular in celebrating Valentine's day. That Saturday just like a normal Saturday. Eventhough was Valentine's day, we have our dinner at Satey Zul, a restaurant which is always having good business and suitable for bringing whole family go and eat. Which means, say nicer is meriah, if say bad geh, is noisy. The food there is nice, thats why we surely go there everytime we go to Kuantan.

We went to Cherating beach before Satey Zul. Finally I went before Club Med...................'s main enterence. We failed to find that part of Cherating beach we wanted to go, due to getting older and memory power is losing. At the end we still went to Cherating beach, but only not tat interesting as the one we wanted to go....

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Cherating Beach~

.Kuantan Version of AE86

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We left Kuantan at early morning as KY need rush back to KL for helping his dad. We officially depart to KL after had our breakfast at house of adeyn's grandparent. On the journey back to KL, KY received a call and he had been told tat the problem settle already. Which mean he no longer need rush back to KL. At the same time, we heard another news tat our area will have electricity cut off until 7pm. So they decided to have a trip to Genting before back to KL. I begin to worry coz later I have to take the scarest transport in Genting, CABLE CAR!! I juz dunno why I can't calm myself when sitting on cable car. Actually Genting not a suitable place for me to visit. I dun go into theme park, neither casino. Cold air? my house got air cond one la. >.<

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I felt nervous on the night we reach KL. My mind just can't take off from ACCA result which coming out tomolo. At the end, I bring my panda eyes when going to work.

Boring Day

I sat at my place form 8.30am until now. But the actual hour I've work was only 3-4 hours. I really can't believe that nothing for me to do. I actually sit here and wait for my colleague to fetch me home. I just finished watched one episod of Bleach animation. Now I can spend my working time to update my blog. You can imagine how free I am right now. I work onli few days a week also nothing for me to do, I really dunno what is the meaning I come to work this week. i believe tomolo will be another boring day. I'm still thinking whether want to ponteng tomolo or not. Really not a good taste sitting at office and do nothing. I rather I have a lot of work to do until I dun have time to think something useless.

Sometimes really hope this world got medicine that can make a person forget something. When I was a child, I always hope want to become adult faster. But now I regret to have that "dream" already. When I was looking at my cousin who only 7 years old, I rather I become him. No worries, no pressure, have many people sayang...............

Exam is coming out soon. Just 2 days after Valentine's day. Want happy jao happy first. When get the result, surely no mood till eat dragon meat aslo no taste. Really scare to see the result this time. Everytime I have confidence to pass those papers, at the end surely disappointed one. Maybe put too much hope in liao. If this time fail all papers, probably will working and stop further my study for this semester. Or maybe buy some coal and suicide lo. No need waste parent's money anymore..

I think I will fall sick soon. Throat again not feeling well liao, plus abit headache and dizzy. It makes me mou wai hou to eat anything at all. But still the stomach "making complaint" eventhough I din feel hungry at all. Appetite comes back abit when the first bite of Lou Poh Bang. Thanks to Miss Lee for the Lou Poh Bang~~

Chinese New Year Eve

Chinese New Year of this year falls on 26th of January, which all the people also feel it is too early. Normally Chinese New Year will be at beginning or mid of February. I think because of this, I begin to clean my house few days before the Chinese New Year. I still lan lan han on the week before cny. Then we end up with cleaning the house like hell. I can say I clean the house from day to night. Luckily my brother came back and help once he finish his exam on Friday. If dependant on the 2 other fella, I think next year cny also not yet finish to clean my house.

Besides cleaning my house, I did shopping on the cny stuffs. I really hate to buy the packet drinks. Because of this stupid packet drinks, I hurt my back. Suddenly feel that I really old liao. Sikit sikit then hurt myself. Next time cannot be hero like that anymore. I feel a bit excited on the first time using my dad’s credit card to buy stuffs at Central supermarket. I know it is against the rules, but then my dad just lazy to go and buy himself. No choice lo, I mai practice how to sign his name under his teaching for 5 minutes. But I think at the end the cashier also can’t do much if they realize the signature is not really the same with the signature at the back of the card.

Dinner of new year eve this year a bit different from the past. Normally we will cook ourselves then eat at grandmom’s house with all the family members. This year have some changes. This year we had our dinner at Mont Kiara. Due to my aunty married to malay, then we choose to have dinner at a halal restaurant. And that restaurant kononnya “halal Tai Thong”… Dinner suppose started on 7.00pm. Due to the “not punctual” culture having in my family, the dinner started around 8.30pm. I almost die of starving…..

Siblings with Bou Bou Queen

Chun Ga Fuk~

After the dinner, we went back and prepare the praying stuffs. Mouth say is going to help, but at the end I only cross my hands and “monitor” while chit chat. I begin to pui fuk myself that I still can chat with my cousins and aunties till 3.30am eventhough I clean the house from day till night.

Wish everyone having good health and prosperity. May you all have a great and wonderful year ahead.. Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Tired

Sometimes I just feel that why I want to be jin guat tao like that. This time really loh lei jin one somemore. If that time I stand tough and insist to reject it, I think I won’t say like that today. Now I was like torturing myself few times a week. But then now complain also no use, who asks me soft hearted just because of few words from him? I really tired of this already. It is not just only tired physically, but mentally as well.

I wonder why my company needs to be shifted from PJ to Shah Alam. Although my colleague fetching me to work, but travelling long way to work really a torturing job. I sit on car only already feel tired, I don’t know how my colleagues can tahan everyday drive so far to work. I salute to their spirit of not giving up and power of tolerance.

I tumpang my colleague’s car to my working place. I know I already consider hang fuk as I don’t need to pay a single cent for my colleague even she send me to work. What I need to do is just wake up on time and put my butt on the car seat until I reach my office and do the same for going back home. But sometimes it is really not convenience especially when I want to go home earlier and she need to stay back in order to finish her work. I feel sorry to ask her go back earlier as her work will be accumulated if she didn’t finish it on the day.

This company a bit toh sui gah one. It shifted to a new developed industrial area which can’t be searched through GPS and any map on internet. Which mean? San ka la area loh. Worst thing is location map was not put in company website as well. Somemore can tell other people that it is 4th biggest logistics company in the world. Really amat menge-toh-sui-kan. I think I call for help till I lost my voice also nobody can come in and save me. It is hard to see other living creature there other than trees and human who forced to work, which mean even the wild cats and dogs also not interested to this area.

The power supply still not yet stable even we shifted to the new office almost a month. Our pc will be turned off and the office will become all dark in a sudden. For those who didn’t save their work, sorry lah. You need to do it again. Same thing goes to the centralized air cond as well. Suddenly I can feel I entered into desert a minute ago, and jump into North Pole in next few minutes. I sick for 2 weeks really thanks to contribution of the stupid air cond.

One thing nice to the new office is the environment had changed. We have brand new table, bigger pantry, self owned toilet which no need to share with other company, bigger car parking space, better security and fresher air.

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Company Front View

.Pantry

.Toilet

.My Table~

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I will leaving this hell place soon. Really nge seh dak to some colleagues who always sayang me, and say bye bye and hou wui mou kei to some of that stupid people who think they're holy, innocent and clever in the office, instead they're only know shoe polishing, busy body and back stabbing.

Happy + Unhappy In A Day

Finally ended my ten days continuous intensive revision class. My mind was like tortured by 2 lecturers in these ten days. It was just like got a person keep stuffing food into my mouth eventhough I not yet starting to digest. Today is the first day I can sleep until 11am since end of October and I have the feeling of reborn!! I really get a shock when I see my face which only slept for 3-4 hours a day. I can’t accept that my face just like a Dracula who didn’t suck blood for a month.

I was in good mood when I woke up. Maybe because I sleep enough liao, what in my eyes also extraordinary beautiful one, including the “cheese choc” I made in the toilet. When the time I staring the monitor while thinking what movie to download first, a pretty called me up for lunch. *Please note that what inside my eyes also extraordinary beautiful/nice at that time.* Venue was at Mid Valley. I reached there around 3pm++. I stunned a while when she suggested to me that we’ll having our lunch in Sushi Zanmai, coz I just walked from The Gardens parking place to Mid Valley centre court, some more with rushing steps. =.=’

I can sense how nice the environment Sushi Zanmai was by just standing outside. The business was quite good until we forced to sit at a corner where it was end of the restaurant. These were what we ordered:

While I enjoying my prawn egg rice, suddenly I think of my salary which my company still owns me. I had waiting the cheque for almost 2 weeks already. Then I took up my phone and sms my friend who working in the same company with me. I asked her to check for me whether the cheque is ready. After a minute, she called me and asked me something about the work I did before I left the company for 6 weeks study leaves. During the chat, I began to lose my patient and tolerance to her, and I starting to throw tantrum and spoke louder and louder. At the end of the chat, my good mood was totally gone. No choice but need to finish the food I ordered. After drank few glasses of cold green tea, my fire can consider lowed down a bit.

The story not ended here. When I reached home and switching on my pc, I received a sms. The sms was from my friend who mentioned above, it was something about my cheque. In the sms, she told me that my cheque cannot be issued because I didn’t give back the company access card. I was like: “WTF”... I was like losing control and my tolerance directly went down to zero, even to negative. Almost all the sentences I replied were in bad word. I do not know why the fucking stupid manager didn’t tell me about this. I had passed him 2 “Time Calculation Sheet” at two different times and never once he mentions this to me. Further more, the manager said if I pass the access card late, HR department will deduct my salary. What you think I keep the access card for??!! I dun have any interest to the documents printed in lauya paper and obsolesced CPU and monitor. My friend even can side the manager and told me that he is busy. That’s why he forgot to tell me about that. KNNCCB, will he forget to sleep when he is busy? Will he forget to shit when he is busy? Will he forget to eat when he is busy???!!! What a stupid and lame reason. At the end, I forced to accept the facts that the cheque only available on next week, as the person in charge is not around.

Sometimes I really regret to treat people so good. I not mind to work hard for the company. But what I get as return was totally a shit. Is part timer not human? Is part timer does not need money? Is part timer really not valuable? Then what for I work so hard for the company while the manager dun even appreciate me??!!

Lucky this world still got one thing called “best friend”… Without her efforts to become my sand bag, I think the grey cloud above my head takes long time to disappear. Thanks you so much… *really worth to treat you eat today*

Unplanned Shopping

Thinking whether I should change my name to "Pemalas Tan" or "Lan Dou Sei", as I feel that I becoming lazier and lazier day after day. Lazy to exercise, lazy to study even the exam is coming, lazy to open mouth and talk,lazy go to work, lazy to update my blog, even lazy to pangsai...*probably get this virus from Adelyn...* But then dunno why suddenly think of update my blog since this morning while I was printing the supporting document for the invoices. Maybe influenced by DaDa's blog...coz I saw my last update was 2 weeks ago, somemore that post was done under some forces. *Of course I saw one another blogger who is lazier than me. At least I'm not the worst one.. gg*

Heavy rain almost everyday for the pass few weeks. It made me keep cursing to it, especially when I have class at KL coz I need to take bus for going to college and same for going home. Everyone also can imagine how leceh it is when you taking bus and raining damn heavily at the same time. Thanks to the stupid rain, roof of my house fell. Of course it was contribution of white ants as well. Lucky that only the outside part of roof fell and involved part was rather small, otherwise my house will be full of water. Supposing it is alright with that, coz that never affect the bedroom upstairs. But my mom claimed that my sister will be in danger as the roof of bedroom might fall. So she asked her to come down and sleep on my brother's bed for temporary while waiting people come to fix it. The result came out with, I loss my "ownership" to enjoy the room myself while my brother is staying in Genting Klang where nearby his study place. Besides, my brother and younger sister need to sleep in dining room when they come back home during weekend. Even the bed owned by my brother, and yet he only can sleep in dining room. No choice, probably this called "prerogative of elder".

One night, me and my family went to do shopping at Mr D.I.Y. after dinner. We went there mainly because of want to buy a car washing sponge which recommended by my neighbour. Basically the goods selling there were slightly cheaper than other shops which selling the same stuffs. As for whether the quality is good or not, it depends. Just because the price of goods are slightly lower, in the eyes of "ordinary" consumers, they become so cheap!! I had nothing to buy, therefore I just walking around and see whether there have something interesting. Right at the time I begin to feel bored, I saw something funny.
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Weird/Creative Decorated Hooks

We stay there almost an hour eventhough that shop only size of two normal shop block. I wonder what attracting my parents until they not willing to leave. Finally they went to make payment at cashier counter 10 minutes before the business hour ended. Although the price of goods are cheap in individually, but when all those stuffs were added up, they cost a lot... ~RM80++ in total.

Tags

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Depend on when she pregnant

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
Of course “I Love U” lo… *nge tong 唐诗三百首meh*

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Khian Foo, coz he can make the impossible to possible
Da Da, coz he is the source of the impossible idea to Khain Foo
Adelyn, coz she can turn on Da Da’s creative brain easily

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most and with whom ?
Japan, France, Australia, outer space…… friends and family

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I wish I could see “∞” in my bank account balance

6.Do you believe you can survive without money?
Can for temporary time… max 2 months

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Friends & family

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
First, I’ll lan si to the people who lan si me before
Then, start planning to buy whatever I like
After that, bring my friends for vacation

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Sure, I do not want sou zao guo hao mou tang dap

10. List out the good points of the person who tagged you.
Friendly, talkative, kind, generous

11. What am I doing now?
Answering the stupid tag questions la. Do u think I can do this while I’m taking bath?

12. Which type of person do you dislike the most?
Person who “wearing mask” will be the person I hate most.
And the rest will be: dishonest, lan si, “smelly mouth” …............

13. What is your ambition?
Accountant

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Simply throwing tantrum

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Yes, but limited to how much money in my wallet

17. What do you see when you look into a mirror?
A short black hair, pimpled face & overweight guy

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Close friends who can keep secret and always giving useful advice

19.The most memorable thing he/she has done to you?
Can’t remember

20. What do you like about this person who tagged you?
She’ll take initiative to concern ppl around her and u will never feel bored if u chat with her

I've decided not to tag anyone...